Tonight is the last night I can sleep on my bed before i leave China. Frankly speaking, I do not want to go back beijing and return sweden, but compare to living in beijing , I prefer to return Lund directly , not stay in beijing with my "sister" and "brother". No matter how comfortable the place  I stay , it can not be my private space, never~~~

During the days i stay in beijing, i dislike there more and more. Why? It is quite easy to understand.  I'd like to stay in a small town with my parents or my zhutou rather than living in a flourishing city along. The point is i am not an ambitious people although I want to get high salary in my future job, and i am really afraid of lonely.

I compain of separating with zhutou often after we fall in love. Everytime, i feel very sad when I see other lovers give a huge hug  each other. At this moment,  I always talk to myself that i can do that as well when I live with zhutou in the future. Quite stupid, right?yes, i see.