It is hard for me to have a good dream now.  Before,it seems dreaming is a difficult thing for me , neither good nor bad. So at that time,i never had nightmare, even dreams., I admired them who aways have some funny dreams so much because I want to dream every day as them. When someone told me that they cried the whole night because a nightmare,I aways laugh at them. As i think,it is just a dream, it is not reality.They are so stupid to cry for a dream.

After something, I can totally understand them who cried the whole night for a dream.My nightmare becomes more and more. I must get one after i heard something I do not like and it seems to describe me that i am not good girl, especially the words come from my bf. I know what the reason is, but i can not control. I am too sensitive now.

 I never care about the dream before since it is not true.But now, i know it is not true, but i am sure it is because something. I do not like these, I do not like to be in a bad mood when i am awake.It makes me feel tired and do not want to talk to anyone. I want to go back home-my safe place.